How Much Is Enough? | A Question of Emotion

At some point in time, you must ask, “How Much is Enough?”

Money and success are mostly paired with the phrase “how much is enough,” but what about emotions?

As humans, we are largely a product of our emotions, how we tame, channelize, and use them is what we become down the line, and this is why I believe that “how much is enough” is a necessary realization that should be implemented on our emotions as well!

Sara was a 5-year-old girl when she used to endlessly pray for her mother’s love. Eventually, she grew big and understood that it was something she could never have. This lag became a self-defining point for her, and that she doesn’t deserve love was what she started to believe.

When she entered into a relationship, she again faced the same thing, even after giving her all, she received love in bits and pieces, which couldn’t stand for long, and in the end, she received rejection. Now that she was big enough, praying and crying were not an option for her, and she decided to fight this time. She took things in her hand and used hope as her weapon. For years, she tried to tie up the broken relationship and was not ready to give up. With every rejection, she stood strong and thought of trying more and more, as hope was what she had…

Well, what happened in the end? She gave up! And why? Because she started to ask, “How much is enough?”

Emotions can either make you strong or turn you into a madman… it depends on when you realize your emotional limitations.

Sara had started to lose her mind… crying spells, lack of job performance, sleepless nights, and random moods became a common part of her everyday schedule, and no matter how hard she tried to mend the broken pieces… nothing could bring that man to her.

Giving up on years of fighting initially came as a feeling of being a loser. Questions such as ‘this is it?’, ‘All my efforts for nothing?’, ‘Should I try more?’, ‘Is it all my fault?’ did disrupt her life, but suddenly one day her inner voice said… ‘No More of This!’ and that is when her questions started to take a different direction- ‘Don’t I love myself enough?’, ‘why did I endure this much pain for a useless case?’, ‘what if I had dedicated all this time to my personal growth rather than following the illusion of love?’

I believe ‘hope’ is the biggest strength, but also a deadly poison that can eat a human alive!

Sara’s broken childhood couldn’t teach her the limits of keeping hope, and this is what became lethal for her. Using ‘hope’ as a reason, she held onto something that she should have left years ago. She held on to a rope that was constantly being pulled out of her hand, and even after seeing her hands bleeding, she just couldn’t let go of it. This was the moment for her to question ‘How much is enough?’

Many of us live under the assumption that trying hard is the definite answer to get what we want. While it is true for money and success, love and emotions don’t even come close to it.

There are many Saras out there giving their best either in a relationship or family, and still getting nothing in return. They keep high hopes that someday the person will realize and reward their efforts, but this doesn’t happen. And yes, it is the sad truth. No matter how much you lose yourself to gain a person yet the scenario won't change because it is only you who can love yourself. Nobody holds the power to make you feel complete, and this is where you need to stop.

These days, I see so many quotes and lines on Social media platforms about broken hearts and how you shouldn’t be loving anybody… This signifies how love has turned to be a matter of sorrow rather than happiness and how fast we are moving towards the doomsday of humanity.

People say “too much of anything makes you lose interest in it,” but I have never seen anybody lose interest in too much money or too much success. In fact, they become greedier to have it. Then why only love or a loving presence come under this category? Why is too much love taken to be negative, or do people run away from it? I see how materialistic we are, and comprehending something so pure and genuine is beyond our ability.

All of this does break my heart. I cannot stop thinking about why people are so shallow and how they can be so ignorant towards the biggest blessing in their life, just to chase insignificant things that won't even tag along to their grave.

If some Sara is reading this blog today, then dear, I would like to tell you that fight for love and show your emotions madly, but when the time comes and you question yourself “how much is enough?”, remember this is when you need to stop.

Note: This is an old blog that was in my draft for a long time, and I am finally posting it today. Luckily, I found a wonderful partner, and I am living a life full of love and peace, and I would hope the same for anybody who is struggling to find genuine love.

My experience: When you lose all hope, god has a special way to compensate for it by sending a genuine person in your life who will not only awaken your hope but will also make you feel truly blessed.